Saturday Ramblings: May is Jacked Up

 I made a pledge to have more personal blog posts going on regularly so you all could actually feel like I'm connected to you.  I know, right?  You're either thinking this is A) a great idea or B) you are hitting the unfollow button and not even reading the rest of this paragraph.  These are all fair thoughts.

Hitting that button would make me very sad, but I totally understand.  (I would offer you free cookies, but I firmly believe in not forcing people to read anything I write - especially when the purpose of the blog is to connect to readers.)

May has been a very hectic month for me in school.  My Saturday timeline went, for the first three weeks:  SAT Round 2  (Weekend 1), Drama Trip to NYC (Weekend 2), and Prom (Weekend 3).  This is the first Saturday in May that I actually have time to breathe.  And amid those first two weeks were three AP exams - four if you consider the fact that AP Economics is divided into two separate exams for micro and macro economics.

It's very scary to be left alone with your thoughts.  Especially when you've been asking yourself questions like, "Can birds choke on raisins?" repeatedly to keep your appropriate level of sanity (or lack of, in my case).

(I've been asking that for like two weeks now and no one truly knows the answer - it's a pretty jacked up cyclical thought.)

Everything has been insane and my blog has suffered from it, but I don't regret it at all.  My mind has been a whirling dervish of activity, insanity, and mild insomnia (but not a bad kind) that has kept me going on 5-6 hours of sleep for about half of my school days.

Finals are done.  Life is settling down.  I'm ready to party and lose my clothes.  (Not really - not the clothes part, anyway, although it's getting to the point where every day is 80 degrees or above, which tends to make me want to lose my clothes because the heat is frustrating.)

So, I've had a lot on my mind to think about recently.  The SATs were an experience in realizing that, heck, I am kind of intelligent.  I thought my first score of 2110 was a fluke, but I got 2120 this time around (although I dropped 30-40 points each in Reading and Writing, only to go up by 80 in Math, meaning that I got over 700 for each subject once).  It was a relief and very, very scary.  I never expected myself to do that well and am amazed to realize that my best score is a 2190.  I feel proud of myself about this and hope that it doesn't come across at bragging.  I truly never expected it, and am so blessed to have done as well as I have.

NYC completely altered my frame of mind.  My first time in the city was two years ago on the very same drama trip.  Then, I had just started my blog and was very much a newb.  Seeing the city was breath-taking and the experience was surreal.  The bright lights of Times Square blinded me.  Street vendors pushed Obama condoms on everyone that passed by.  I saw my first Broadway shows - In the Heights and Mamma Mia! - and realized that there was another city that had stolen my heart (Pittsburgh being the other).  Two years later, it was my second trip.  The deafening shriek of the city's excitement became a gentle roar to me.  Everything felt easy and comfortable.  Things seemed to have more reality to them, and I fell in love with it even more.  I also procured a lovely bracelet from a small scent shop next to our hotel - an object that I'm treasuring.

Coming back, I've since had a lot happen to me.  I'm planning on getting my license.  I got hired for my first job, which I'll work in conjunction with school.  I've left Dear Author (you can read my farewell post to know a bit more why - it was entirely mutual and does not mean I'm remotely leaving blogging or the DA community, just leaving as a reviewer there).  I've gotten a chance to review and blog at some other venues that are more in need of me, and I can't wait to share those with you all once things have settled.  My blogging is in preparation to get back on track, and I hope to come back stronger than ever.  On top of that, I've gotten some great new mentors and have finally found the inspiration to write again - and with summer break less than a week away for me, I'll finally have the time to put the peddle the meddle and get cranking on my WIP.

Just insane.  Simply, confusingly insane.  It's hard to imagine that life has rushed by and that May has been so packed with events.  Readers, I'm sorry for leaving you all alone for so long, but I hope you understand a bit of why I've been absent - and why I want to get more personal with you guys.  Let me know how you like the idea of personal posts.  I could do them every Saturday, every other Saturday, or once a month or something.  Whatever my readers want, I'm more than willing to provide.

 Now, have any of you been feeling this way?  Has May been as transformative for you as it has for me?  Let me know.  Let's have a relaxed chat and enjoy the beginnings of summer.

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Review: The Good Father by Diane Chamberlain



Title:  The Good Father

Author:  Diane Chamberlain

Publisher:  MIRA Books

Series:  None

Other Reviews for This Author:  None

Women's fiction is that wonderful genre that has become a comfort for me.  It's a genre that takes some of the more verbose writing in literary fiction and adds a bit more plot and character growth into the mix.  It has elements of romance but focuses more on the domestic here and now - women and their relationships on the whole, not just their romance with the love of their life.  It's a nice break from romance and young-adult, and it can be extremely satisfying to read a good women's fiction novel.  The Good Father is more of a male-centric version of women's fiction (there are two female point-of-views, but the starring point of view is the singular male voice of Travis) that gives its readers a touching view on what it's like to be a single father that struggles to provide everything he can for his daughter - even if it means doing something he never wanted to do.

At the age of 19, Travis became a teen father.  He left behind any notion of living a regular life when his girlfriend Robin became pregnant with his daughter.  Now, several years later, Travis is facing a life more difficult than he ever imagined.  He lived with his mother, did construction work to help pay for Bella's needs, and was generally happy.  Then his mother's house burned down in a fire.  Bella survived, but his mother didn't.  Travis and Bella are now homeless and without a source of income.  They're living in Travis' van and washing up in a local coffee shop in the mornings.  Travis can't seem to find a job, but he does have a connection that should give him the opportunity to earn some money - if he can handle doing something illegal in the name of keeping Bella cared for.

Robin was never allowed to date Travis Brown.  Travis was everything that Robin's father wanted to protect her against - a hormonal teenage boy that came from little social standing and little class.  He was too hard to resist, though.  Travis was Robin's best friend and companion.  Their love was one that grew until it surpassed that of friendship.  It all seemed so inevitable - making love, having a baby - even though Robin's heart disease and her oppressive father threatened to disrupt everything.  Then her disease worsened.  She had the baby in the hospital and realized that her illness would make it impossible to be a mother.  She signed her baby girl over to Travis' care and pretended as if she never existed.  Years later, Robin is engaged to an older man who's running for mayor.  His prominent social standing and wealth promise so much for her.  He's everything her father wanted her to have, but all Robin can think about is the baby she left behind.

When Erin first met Travis and Bella in JumpStart, she was overcome with concern over their living situation.  They came in almost every morning; Travis would take Bella into the restroom, and they would both come out looking as if they had used it to clean up.  He always seemed like he couldn't afford to buy her a breakfast in the morning.  Erin immediately connected to Bella, thinking of her as a little girl similar to her own daughter who had died in a freak accident.  Her tentative friendship with Travis and his daughter quickly grew into something far more serious than Erin ever expected.  Erin had no idea that Travis would see her as a friend and entrust Bella into her company.  Erin had no idea that Bella would help her get to the next stage of grief - or that Travis would seemingly abandon his daughter in order to finally get a job to support her.

Chamberlain's story shines in many small ways.  The balance of these three narrators is rarely perfect, yet each of them shines.  Travis is the center of attention within the novel and easily the most complex of the three narrators.  Travis is the type of male character that is almost impossible to imagine in real life, yet at the same time he is arguably more realistic than most female author's perceptions of male characters.  Travis does have a few traditional "male" tendencies such as saying the word 'dude' (which I will talk about more in a bit), but for the most part his personality leans towards the more sensitive end of things.  His life issues have sobered him up as a character.  He doesn't exist simply to be a static male voice, but instead to show that there is a very real type of single father out there - a sacrificial type of father that, while overwhelmed, understands the trials and tribulations of being a single parent.  In part, Travis plays a huge role in allowing readers to finally find a hero that understands being a single parent.  He starts off the novel as being completely at odds with his current living situation, and he is pressured into doing something he would never do in order to make ends meet.  The reader sees how Travis matures from his flashbacks (where he is a teenager with Robin and just experiencing the issues with her father) to his present self to his post-book self.  Everything he goes through revolves around his determination to make Bella's life better than what it is.  What's interesting is that Chamberlain doesn't attach this to a sense of male hubris.  His goal is never because of his manly pride, but because of his duty as a father to the daughter that he loves.  That, to me, made Travis a character that I loved reading about again and again.  Most authors put so much focus on the male ego and pride.  Travis isn't that type of guy at all - and it makes him realistic.  Not only does he end up being realistic, but watching him grow in his sense of duty as a father and his love for Bella is just beautiful.  It's the kind of story that really touches a reader's heartstrings.

The other two narratives focus on the women that Travis has touched in his life.  Robin's narrative is not as present as Erin's - Robin doesn't have as much contact with Travis outside of flashback scenes - and is therefore a little bit weaker in terms of execution, but there isn't a lack of depth to her character by any means.  Robin provides the reality of what it's like to lose your child in a way that would result in your ex-lover being the single parent.  Robin expresses a lot of charged emotions; she starts with numbness and a barely perceptible understanding that something is missing in her life.  As the story progresses, Robin finds her fiance to be more of a terrible person than she imagined.  She cannot stop thinking about the love she left behind with her daughter and Travis.  These memories bombard Robin until she beings to truly notice the world around her - how things have lost their luster, how she has driven herself into a false sense of security, how she is not really happy with all of the things going on that are supposed to be happy.  Robin is one of those characters that some women will see themselves in.  She's the type of character that is happy in her career and supposedly going on to the next step of a happy, well-to-do marriage, but in reality does not want to be married to the traditionally good guy.  Erin is much different from Robin.  Where Robin is still inexperienced and confused with some of the things relating to pre-marriage, Erin is suffering from the confusion of post-marriage life.  Her issues with her husband and how he deals with grief lead her to want a temporary separation from him.  The separation confuses Erin as much as it helps her.  She grieves for her daughter in a way that makes her desperate to make contact with another child like her - Bella being the first person she latches on to.  What's cool about Erin is that her growth is very strong, and much of it comes from this seemingly bad behavior of hers.  The reader initially questions why Erin's befriending of Bella would be a positive influence on her mental state, but Bella encourages Erin in subtle ways that are really a genius way to show character growth.  Befriending Bella and Travis gives Erin a sense of worth, but it also gives her a chance to focus on something other than her grief.  She ends up confronting her husband and her behavior in ways that, throughout the book, allow her to open up as a person and move forward in her life.  She also comes to better understand the different types of grief.  Everything in these two women's narratives felt honest, deep, and emotional.  There was so much to enjoy.  The only real issue is that, compared to Travis, the character arcs are minor and not as satisfying from a narrative standpoint.

Despite strengths in character, Chamberlain did show weaknesses in some of the storytelling ideas she used in The Good Father The Good Father is a character-driven novel, and the weakness in character relationships showed in the romance between Robin and Travis.  The romance is a relatively late-blooming affair that hinges on the idea that the reader can believe that the two still love each other after several years of separation and dealing with misconceptions implanted to both parties by Robin's psychotic father.  Yes, the two have a well-established history that is finely crafted and proves to read realistically, but the drastic difference of five plus years without contact between the two makes their romance unbelievable.  There's not much except a continuation of what left off.  Is it possible?  Yes.  Does the reader enjoy it and find it lovely in the moment?  Yes.  Does it read as being realistic?  No.  What the romance really leaves out is all that changed the two in those five years.  Five years is a long time to be without the love of your life.  Between the lies Robin's father told and the growing up the two did after their separation, it's hard for the reader to truly accept that their relationship feels so conflict-free at the end.  It goes beyond planting a simple seed of hope for the relationship and reads as too definitive about their future for the novel.  The Good Father, as women's fiction, does not have to comply with genre romance standards, so I don't expect a present-time romance that was just rekindled in the last fifty or so pages to have a definitive happy ending or anything beyond hope.  The two characters had changed too much for coming romance to make sense in the text without some background.  The same could be said of the suspense portion of the plot that kicked in at the end - although it was more established than the romance by far, at times it felt tacked on and not necessary for the advancement of the characters.  Still, Chamberlain made the suspense work for the most part - and its addition to the text was probably one of the reasons that she's compared to Jodi Picoult, who writes subplots of a similar nature (although hers err on the legal/court side of things as opposed to the action.)

Chamberlain's writing does have a lot of strengths to it, just the same.  There's something about her style of writing that keeps the reader invested.  She focuses on exposition and dialogue, letting her characters and their domestic actions run the story as opposed to a plot line.  She has a literary quality to her voice, yet for the most part everything is straight-forward and doesn't become unreadable because of the themes she explores.  Everything focuses on the characters and their emotional journey, and Chamberlain's style is very good at showcasing the strengths of that type of storyline.  Her characters explore themselves and their internal struggles with such intensity that it makes up for the lack of a major plot.  The writing has a very comforting quality to it.  Chamberlain focuses on letting her characters gain their own voices within the text.  Their stories focus a lot on flashbacks and overcoming their pasts to grow as people.  Chamberlain's writing just allows those domestic portions of the text to shine - she shows her reader the importance of the everyday and how it relates to a person's psychology.  Everything interconnects to her characters, their pasts, and how they react to things in the present.  Chamberlain just gets character writing, and in women's fiction that's a huge plus.

All-in-all, there's a lot that I loved about The Good Father.  I fully expected the book to take two or three days to read because of the nature of the genre and my reading pace with women's fiction, yet I polished it off in a day when I had some intense reading time.  My head rarely came up from the text.  Nothing seemed as important as finishing the story that was playing in my head.  Chamberlain's characters - Travis, Robin, Erin, Bella - stick with you and make a lasting impression.  The story itself is more on the forgettable side because of the lack of plot, but the emotional resonance of the piece is positive and memorable.  Readers looking for the emotion of women's fiction with a solid male character will find The Good Father to be more than satisfying, although the novel doesn't deliver as well on the romantic or suspense end of its subplots.

Cover:  I actually really like this cover.  It very much captures the contemplative feeling of the novel, and the little girl gives off the essence of Bella's character well.  Maybe a little too quiet of a cover, but pleasant to look at.

Rating:  4.5  Stars

Copy:  Received from publisher/publicist for review  (Thank you, Meryl L. Moss Media, MIRA, and Erin.)

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Guest Post & Blog Tour: Diane Chamberlain

Hey, all!  Later today I'll be featuring a review of Diane Chamberlain's The Good Father - and as a part of the blog tour, here's a guest post from Diane herself, an invitation to a live chat with Diane, and a link to tomorrow's stop on the blog tour.  :)  Here's Diane...


How do you continue to find inspiration after writing so many novels?

 If anything, writing so many novels has made it easier for me to find inspiration rather than harder, because I’ve learned to see it in the everyday. Inspiration is everywhere, but as with most things in life, it can take practice to recognize it. When it’s time for me to think about writing another book, I become a sponge. Everything I see and hear is fodder for a new story. I listen in on conversations in restaurants (sorry!). I go to museums and study the paintings of people, looking into their eyes to imagine what they’re thinking. I watch movies to help me hone my story-telling skills. And I pay attention to my dreams, which often offer fascinating dilemmas I can use to test my characters, even if those dreams are so scary I have to turn on the light and play computer Scrabble until I can clear my head! One thing I tell new writers is that they need to live in order to write. It know how much it helps me to get outside of my writing cave and move among people. I pay attention to what they say and do. Sometimes I go to the airport and simply watch the reunions. Some are joyous occasions. Some are borne of tragedy. I imagine the stories of those people--and of people wherever I go. Not only does it feed my story-telling imagination, but it makes me feel more empathy for people in general, and that can’t hurt either in the creation of fully dimensional characters or in living my day to day life. The Good Father was inspired by observing a young man and his little daughter in a coffee shop. If I hadn’t been there at the moment they walked inside, I would have missed this story I had the joy of writing. Tomorrow I might spot an old man in a restaurant or a teenager at a bus stop, just waiting to inspire me. All I have to do is pay attention.

For more information on the live chat with Diane, here's a look at the invitation:




To see the participants in the tour and the blogs that are hosting excerpts from The Good Father, go to the tour website here to view the schedule. 

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LGBTQ Voice: Closing Statement and Mega Giveaway



Well, April is over and so is LGBTQ Voice 2012.  It's been an amazing year for guest posts and interviews despite my own trouble in finding the time to set it up, and I can't thank the authors, readers, and other participants enough for making this an amazing two weeks.  LGBTQ literature for young adults has come so far in the past few years, and I hope that it only grows in its scope and quality as readers become more aware of what it has the potential to become.

Now, here's a little recap of all of the interviews/guest posts/reviews done for the event:

Opening Post 

Guest Post:  Frank Anthongy Polito


Interview:  Cheryl Rainfield

Interview:  Tom Ryan


Interview:  T.A. Chase

Review:  Way to Go by Tom Ryan

Interview:  S.J. Adams/Adam Selzer

Interview:  Sarah Diemer

Interview:  Emily M. Danforth


Interview:  Brian Farrey

Interview:  Hayden Thorne

Guest Post:  Catherine Ryan Hyde

And here are the two giveaways I'm hosting for it - I've decided to just have everything end a week from now, May 10th, in case readers missed the giveaways and would like a chance at winning some *awesome* books and swag.

Giveaway:  Digital Copy of Hunted

Giveaway:  Signed Copy of Way to Go

Giveaway:  Signed Copy of The Miseducation of Cameron Post & Swag

And, finally, the Giant Book Giveaway of Awesome!  Readers, you will have a chance to win a box with these titles (and maybe some mystery titles, too) along with some random young adult book swag that I will sprinkle in there as best I can.  Here are the current titles planned for the giveaway (all going to one winner, by the way).











With or Without You by Brian Farrey

Boy Meets Boy by David Levithan

Unnatural by Michael Griffo

Annie on My Mind by Nancy Garden


Hear Us Out! by Nancy Garden

Out of the Pocket by Bill Konigsberg

The End by Nora Olsen

Swimming to Chicago (ARC) by David Mathew Barnes


The Obsidian Man by Jon Wilson

Note that I often like to add in "surprise" titles if I have them on hand, but all of the books listed will definitely be a part of the giveaway. 

And, finally, the official form!  Click the link, fill it out, and party (or not - I will not force you to party in this contest).


Giveaway ends May 10th

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LGBTQ Voice 2012: Catherine Ryan Hyde on Defending the Rainbow




 Defending the Rainbow


This is hardly an original thought, but it would be nice to live in a world where we didn’t have to create a special LGBTQ genre for literature. It would also be nice to live in a world without affirmative action, but only if no affirmative action was needed. And that’s not the world we live in now.

To get LGBTQ stories to the LGBTQ teens (and other readers) who need them requires direct action. Somebody has to monitor the health of the genre, and, more importantly, defend it. The “Don’t Say Gay” crowd certainly doesn’t want anyone to write about it, either, and I’m afraid it would be painfully easy to for them to get their way if we didn’t offer up a unified front.


It may seem like an odd comparison, but when my novel Pay It Forward was adapted for film, the African American main character turned white. He turned into Kevin Spacey. And I watched as a lot of people said that was okay, because casting should be “colorblind.” It’s a nice concept on paper, this colorblindness, but if it truly worked, then lots of white characters would turn African American as well. Unfortunately, colorblindness can just be a white-washed way of describing the process by which we turn a blind eye to prejudice.

I should also mention that I had two minor gay characters and one fairly major transgender character in that book. No, you didn’t blink and miss them in the movie. They disappeared. So it’s pretty clear that colorblindness can and will eliminate our rainbow if we let it.

In a perfect world, about 10%-20% of fictional characters should be LGBTQ, because that’s a roughly accurate representation of the world, so far as I know (my apologies if I’m misstating the statistic). But we are so not there yet. And until we get there, I think we need to continue to separate out LGBTQ fiction to honor it, to make it easy for teens to find it, and to monitor its ongoing health.


I never really set out to write exclusively, or even mainly, LGBTQ fiction, despite my own sexual orientation. In no other way do I tie my characters to my own experience. I write about all kinds of people who are different from me. Male characters, the mentally ill (some would say that’s open for debate), Viet Nam veterans, children…part of the joy of being a writer is finding the universality in all humans, and being able to imagine the experience of someone you’re not. If I told you that my overall life background falls somewhere between bisexual and gay (which is true, it does) you might think that factors into my ability and/or willingness to write straight characters. But it doesn’t seem to work that way. For years I had a pushback against writing a straight female character with a love interest, because I couldn’t find the enthusiasm to relate to her feelings for that man. So if I knew the character wanted to be straight, I’d write from a male point of view.

For reasons I can’t possibly fathom, that block evaporated. And now my character simply tells me who he or she is. And I would no sooner reject that simple truth than I would reject a new friend for being straight. I would hope that the idea here is unity rather than more separation.

All that said, when I got into Young Adult literature (where, frankly, it doesn’t seem I will stay), two out of five of my YA books, Becoming Chloe and Jumpstart the World, fit distinctly into the LGBT genre. And that’s no accident. I felt that a lot more such literature was needed for teens. (This was around the mid 2000s, but I’d still like to see the numbers come up.) So I contributed some. And of course it’s a subject close to my heart, because I know how it feels to grow up without the books you need. No kid should have to get The Well of Loneliness out of the library and try to make sense of that depressing, archaic, boring tome. I’m guessing only a few people who will read this are even old enough to understand the reference, but before Rubyfruit Jungle, there just wasn’t much, and what there was stank badly.

We’ve come a long way, but we still have a long way to go.

Yes, I’m in favor of a future in which books are not gay or straight, but simply books. And in reading a sampling of books in this imaginary new world, one will see straight, gay, lesbian, bisexual, transgender, questioning, intersex, and a rainbow of gender-nonconforming characters represented in about the same numbers they appear in life. I’m optimistic, yet a realist—I’m not holding my breath on living to see this.

In the meantime, it’s essential that we not pretend we are any closer to that ideal than we really are. Until then, yes, we carefully create and defend a separate genre of our fiction, because it’s needed. Because it saves lives. With an epidemic of LGBT suicides in recent months and years, we’d be foolish, in my opinion, to treat LGBTQ fiction as anything less than a life-or-death issue. If we stand for life, we make a strong stand for our books.  

 Catherine Ryan Hyde is an award-winning author of both adult and young adult fiction.  Her debut adult novel, Pay it Forward, was made into a film, and her most recent YA novel, Jumpstart the World, has received two Rainbow Awards and is up for two Lambda Literary awards.  You can learn more about Catherine at her website

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